E-carr

Dhil

At Marina Barrage

At C.A

Well yesterday met up with my bestie,Dhil.
Love her lots.
Had our dinner at C.A.
Well its damn delicious.


After that our next stop would be Marina Barrage.
Got to say it's a very beautiful place
N its the new attraction.
Especially the view at night.
Superb.
Love it a lots.

Den we had to Haji Lane
As usual.
Shishaing.
Muahaha.
Its just me,Dhil n e-carr.
And only the three of us
Its already happening.
We laugh like nobody business.
haha.

And the last stop is pub.
Ahaha.
We got free drinks.
Thanks to ecarr.
Cos her friend work at that pub
near bugis street.
Cool
We got absolute vodka.
One half bottle
and one full bottle.
Cos her customer's friend treat us.
Its dammn shiok.
ahahak.
And yeah.
I can control my alcohol real well.
But Dhil and E-carr just can't
muahaha.
I drink 3 glasses
of vodka and mixed of ribena
damn nice.
Should try you peeps.







To Dhil,
I'm sorry if what I've said make you more stress.
But I just can'tbeat to see you in pain.
I don't want you
to be like me.
having revenge on guys.
Having doubts on guys.
Don't.
Cos I don't want you
to miss out on that special someone.
You know who I'm talking about.
I know you confused.
And I know I've shouldn't tell you
About what I feel.
But You my bestie
And I think I have to do it.
For your own gd.
And know everything that
I said
somehow still ringing
inside your head.
I just dont want you to make
the same mistakes as
I do.
And its already been too late
for me to
back out
of this situation
And yesterday
I felt sad when
you cried.
I can see how hurt you
are.
And I can see
you still holding on
to the memories of
you and him.
The scar he left you
is so deep
that its hard for you
to take it.
I know.
I can feel the pain too.
Throw away the hatred
you had towards guys.
Not all are typical kind
like your ex.
I don't want you to get hurt again.
And never wanna see you shed tears
yet again.
I'll always be there for you
Like you did for me.
love ya lots!

Hey peeps.

All due to work and lack of sleep.
And thank god
today is my off day.
At last.
Yeaaah~!!


And yeah btw I've bought the tickets to ZoukOut.
WOW!!
I like.
haha
WEll gtg now.
Today I'm gonna be out whole day with
DHIL!!
Planning to go Marina Barrage
New place need to explore.
aha.


And oh yeah !
You guys have to watch Madgascar2
Super funny.
I now its late.
But go n catch it online.
hahaha

N yeah I'm gonna miss Jun my buddy at Taka.
Tmr gonna b her last day at work.So sad.
Aniway Jun
Best wishes for your future
n everything that u plan to do.
Tc babe.
Gonna miss ya,
Keep in contact aite love..

Hey peeps.
Kind of tiring day.
Lack of sleep.
Having two stupid eye bag.
Damn it.
Grrr.
I'm just waiting for my off day.
Gonna have a gd sleep ppl.
haha.
"besar kan pantat je lala"
Tsk X3
Muahahha.
Well not sure what's the plan
hold for me on this sat.
Hmm.
I'm not sure whether I'm going on the date
Cos he's working:(
So sad.
Lol.
But gonna meet up wit my bestie-Dhil
And maybe going to head to the club.
Wow.
Zirca Club.
If I'm not wrong its the new
place at M.O.S.
So looking forward on that day.
Hope my date can make it.
So we gonna have double date.
Yippeee!
haha
Like real its gonna happen.
But still I'm gonna pray hard.
lol.

And yeah I bought a new camera.
WOW.
I like!!!
hahaha
Can't wait to used it.
Lol.
Cool or wat!!!

Well yeah after I recieved message
from my bestie(Faten)
I cry.
I don't know why I've been so emotional.
But seriously I think its time for me to speak-up.
Darl its not that i dont want to hang out with u
or share my probs with u gals.
Its just u gals been so-so busy with ur bf/life.
As a close friends
I try to understand
But as day by day
every single outing,
Its like making me bored.
Cos u gals keep on bringing ur guy.
I dont mind.
But i just wished we had our gals night out
shared things
n problems.
I just wished that its just us the gals.
I know I've been selfish n self-centered.
But just once.
Just once we had girls out.
Yeah true I'm abit of jealous
N feel agitated.
But i try to put strong front
n faked smile
cos I don't want to hurt u gals
or spoil the mood.

Thats the reason why
I keep on goong out with my closest bestie(Dhil)
And she's been helping me
n advise me on stuff.
Yes some can say that she might lead me astray
But i dont think so.
I know she is much trustworthy.
Faten dont blame urself cos
of what his happening to me right now.
Seriously right now I've been drift away
so far away.
To the extend that no one can save me
except myself.
I don't even recognized to
what I have become.


And about guys.
I'm just fling around with them
Nothing wrong with that.
Yes I'm a flirt
but
at least I don't flirt
with attached guys.
But at the time
of flirting
I too made a mistakes
n many wrong moves.
And I'm tried.
Exhausted.
Guys come n go in my life.
Now i don't give a damn.


Well Faten
u want to know what happen
between me n Fad.
Well here it goes.
I dont trust him
I doubt him
I dont have any feelings for him
at first.
But
as day by day passed
as we contact each other
He proved to me
he want to be there for me.
He proved to me he want to gain
the trust n love from me.
But as for me.
I bustard him.
I keep on rejecting every meeting with him.
I get to know many other guys aside from him
Den I get to know new guys
I forget him for awhile.
I know I'm bad.
I know I'm like a player but who cares.
Cos to me all of them are just friends.
Hmm.
But den I feel something missing from my life
FAD.
I missed him so terribly,
I dont know why.
But somehow I feel like
I'm starting to fall for him.
His concern abt me,
his love towards me
Jus make me fall for me deeply,
But still I didn't grab hold of him
I don't know why.
Its just my ego.
I let my ego control me.
For god sake.
As day goes by,
I've started to lose him.
And i know right now his found new one.
N it really disheartening
N i regret cos I nvr grab hold of him.
But after I think back.
He deserved someone better.
Someone who he don't need to worry about.
So right now
I'm trying to filled up the emptiness.
But sometimes I feel
this isn't what I want.
But I still carry on with it.
Dammn it.


Darling you dont need to worry bout me.
I will stop when I feel enuf is enuf.
Its just let me be.
Let the reality hit me
den i will realized it.
I will still LOVE YOU DARL
N the RASCAL too.
N I'm still the same lala
when I'm with u gals.!!!
Muacks

Ok darlings!
Gd news.
My parents gonna be away for three days
from 12-14.
WTF!!
Best news ever.
haha.
Nnnnn...
Tats mean I can go to ZOUKOUT!!
Yeahhh!!!
Hooray!
Wow!!
Gonna get the tickets on Friday/Saturday bah.
Yippeee!!
I can't wait lah seh.
And might be ton over.
Woahh!

And yeah today at work somebody
is getting on my nerve.
GRRRR!!!
I'm damn angry n frustrated
Fucked up.
Guess what happen.
My close friends-Nad,
dropped by my shop since she round the corner.
N its been long time since I met her.
And so I hug her
And that nyonya trying to be a boss
Asking me to control"oiooi"
Oiooi otak dier.
Fucking kepo.
Den I wan to chat with Nad
since theres no customer at all
She also seems like not happy.
Damn it.
Even my manager dont mind
Why should she?
N.B.C.B
grrr.
I just hate her.Ok moving on.
I miss my gd friend-Nini!
Haha.
Babe chat with ya real soon aite!
Tc
Muahkxx


Lala♥

Yeah ZoukOut on 13th december.
Damm it I'm dying to go.
ARGGGG!!!
But the tix are quite X.
38 bucks was sold out.
lol.
I'm just thot of purchasing that price tix.
But damm too late.
Now left 48 bucks tix
Shoots.
Should i go or not?
Grrr!!
But my bestie(Dhil)
is not going.
alaa.
So boring w/o her.
But someone asked me out to go with him
but should i go?
IDK.
I have many plans on december.
So maybe I'm not going bah.
Alala.
What a waste.
Sorry Qib,I don't think I'm going.
Next time bah i go ok?
hehehe.

I missed my Rascals too.
Sorry if I've not spending times with u gals.
I missed those days
The days full of laughter
The day that is full jokes
There's lots of catching up to do
And sorry if there's lots of stuff I didn't share
with u gals.
There's some things that i better
keep to myself.
There's some things that can be shared.
I hope u gals understood.
I may change to someone
whom u gals might not know
But all u gals need to know is
I'm still the same old Lala for u gals
I'm the same old gal
whether u gals can confide in me
The same old gal that can joke ard
N the same old gal
whom u gals can asked for advised.
I will always hear your problems.
I will always lend u my shoulder to cry on
And I will still give advise
if u need one.
We shall meet up real soon ladies.
Hmm how bout Christmas eve?
We gather together.
N anyday if u gals wan to just hang out.
Just beep me
anytime
anywhere
anyone.
hahaha.

To Faten:
Well gal I've read your blog.
And I'm touched by your concern.
I too hoped that I can shared my problems with you
But I just can't
I don't know why
But its hard for me.
I only want to share my happiness with u gals
U gals have your own life
N so do i.
I know that if possible I tell everything to you.
But i just can't bring myself to do that.
I know I've change to someone that
I,myself despise.
I'm trying to change back
But not now.
It's not the right time yet.


Well I know I've change to someone
that I,myself don't even recognized.
I know I've change to someone
who is evil.
I hate myself.
I hate what I've done to n with other guys.
Damn.
Stop.
I'm sorry.
ARGHH!!
What have I done.
Shoots.
Now i realized that I've fooled around with MANY guys.
Damn it.
I shouldn't be that way
Fucked up!
This isn't me.
I ain't a player.
I just want to be happy n filled up my loneliness
in life.
But it seems
I have drift away too far.
No one can save me
except
for myself.
I have to change back things to where it should be.
Damm!!
Just because I drink n smoke
doesn't make me a bad person.
I just need someone
just one
to hold me back.
Grab me from the back.
And show some guidance to life.
I hate myself.
Its a disguise.
I want to change
but not now.
I just need time and space
to be alone.

Well yesterday i had breakfast with my "sister".

We try the new KFC breakfast.
Well the services is slow n not prepared.
grrr!!
But when we eat it all the anger just fade away
hahaha.
ITS damm NICE LAH!!!
Well let the picture do its thing.


This A.m Twister(american)


Honey biscuit!!!BEST!!

YUM~YUM




After work met up with Dhil(bestie gue lah si)
The first ever saturday that
was draggy.
haha.
Hmm both of us only chilling ard at city hall area
cos we dont have enough money to enjoy our day.
haha.
So we chit-chat
shared our problems.
Cry out my hearts while listening to songs.
Den we exchange opinion.
Den both of us were so stress out
cos we missing ppl.
haha.
So Dhil had the urge to drink.

After we think n think
so we went to 7-11 n buy drinks,
Fuhh!!!
at last.
Best.
Released all my stress.
Den hmm..
someone was getting high.
HAAHA
Its been long since dhil had a beer.
Cos lately she been having liquor.
So she had 'Amsterdam'
Whereas me i tried new beer(dont know wats the name)
But its dammm nice.
First beer which i like.
So we drink n drink.
Hmm.
Didn't expect her to be drunk.
Haha.
So momok called her up,
den he gonna picked us up.
And den drama starts.
haha.
kekek lah seh.
So cut it short
I had to called Momok n asked him to hurry up.
haha.lol.
den we head home by cab.lol.
First time i saw my bestie drunk.haha.







To Fad:
Hear me out for very last time.
I used to missed you
but not anymore.
I used to adore you
but now i don't think so.
I used to killed my ego away
but now i think it doesn't matter anymore to you.
I used to cry my heart out
but now i know it wasn't worth
I killed my ego yesterday
cos i thought i can't afford to lose you again.
I used to feel regret
cos i nvr grab hold of u.
But now after i tink back
U deserve someone better.
I dont deserved someone like you,
I'm trying hard to forget about u n me.
N after u didn't reply to my last msg
I get the clear picture.
N i feel much better.
Now i know
I have to moved on.
There's no regret aftr this
cos I will
forget about me n u.
N we can only remains as friends.
Tc cos i jus ain't right for you.
This gonna be last post abt u.
N last tears im gonna shed.
Lastly I just wanna say I USED TO LOVE YOU.
But now not anymore.
BYE~

I'm just confused.
Should I quit my job? Should I try office jobs instead of retail?
Haiyaa!! So stress.
One by one of my colleague is leaving.
N soon I'm gonna be the only Malay girl left.
WTH.
N I hate one of my colleague,
which is a "nyonya".
I totally despised her.
She F***ING irratating.
She just racist.
Thats what i hate about her.
She's wants respect
But
she didn't know how to respect ppl back.
I'm like WTF!!
Arggh!
Since I join the company this is the first time i feel so stress
bcos of work.
N since she join the company
2mths back,
out of sudden there's lots of politics.
Damn it.
She just someone who easily jealous about other ppl
closeness
N now my closest colleague at work
Cheri
was just been terminated.
I'm so -so sad
N
felt disheartening.
I just don't feel the used of coming to work
anymore.
I'm gonna miss my sister Cheri.
*weik-weik*
She's the only one that I feel close with
after the rest of my colleague
gone.
She's the only one that i feel close with.
Cos she treat me like her own sister.
So when she's gone later aft 18 dec,
I'm gonna cry again.
Haiz~
There's no more 'habak'
No more 'sexuality' stuff to share.
No more secrets to tell.
No more advise been given to me.
Just no more.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!


Lala♥

♥Thanks Faten for helping me making this awesome blog.
I ♥ you
Well my first blog of the day.hehe.
hmm.Well many things has been going around my life.
I'm not really sure what I'm up to.
Well true i got to know many guys
But none suits my heart.
Sometimes people tends to think that I'm a playgirl
But I'm not.
I'm just trying to feel up the emptiness in my life.
Is it wrong?
I don't think so.
But in the process of it,
I realized something.
I dont feel any happiness at all.
What do I need more?
Why must I do all this?
Is this me?
I don't know.
I know I have hurt n fool around with a few guys heart.
But I can't do anything.
If I have to take care every guys heart,
whose gonna take care mine?
NO one can.
And seriously rite at this moment
I'm missing someone.
I missed out on this guy whom trying to gain my trust and love.
True I'm weak when it comes to love.
Why can't I see that he is the one for me?
I have doubt on him at first.
Yeah I know its weird cos we have not meet yet.
We only contact through msg,calls n msn.
Yeah i know I'm gambling with my hearts.
But he just been there when i need advise.
He just been there to support me emotionally.
I used to say to myself that I wont fall in love with him.
But I'm wrong.
Day by day he proves to me he wants to be there for me.
N when i get to know new guys
I've forget him for awhile.
I know what I do is wrong.
But arggh!!
What a mistakes.
I not a flirt like u all think.
Aniway
I missed him tats for sure.
But what can I do?
Yeah you guys can say "Lala go n make the first moves"
But hw?
I'm having this ego n negative thinking about the outcomes.
I'm trying hard to moved on
but its hard.
Some even say "You just confused"
Yeah hell its true.
I'm just confused.
I don't know
what am I doing.
Damm.
I just wished HE can grant my wish.

Lala♥