Met with Sham.
Hang out with him
after work.

Den head to Mul's(Ecarr) crib.
Lazing around there.
Play monopoly
Ok Dhil OKB.
Hahhaa.

Lol.

Den wait for Ecarr met her friend.
Den head home at 2am

Haiz

Don't know whether
I'm going to follow Sham
for his soccer match.
Waliao tired sia,
So gd luck lor Sham
trying to wake up call me.
hahahhaa

Who am i?
What have i done?
How many more gonna get hurt?
Damn I'm guilty-stricken
This is not what I want.
Argh.
He doesnt deserve this.

Why you still so kind to me
eventhough I've hurt u.
You doesn't deserve it.
I'm sorry cos I've hurt u.
You still my close friend.

Work
Tired.
Hang out with Tafsir
Went home.
On the phone
with Zee.
Den Syad called.
As usual fights.
Damn it .
Fcking tired
And hv to entertain
his bullshit.
Argh fucking
no mood now.

Ain't certain about your decision.
Ain't certain about what
I've been feeling.
I'm sorry cos I've hurt you.
I didn't mean to do so.
Yes true what you say.

We love each other,
But we're not meant to be together.
Well its all fate.

You asked me
whether I can live
without u.

Yes I'm certain
I can live without you.
But I'm sure
it wont be the same
when you're not in my life.
And yes I'm so sure
I'm gonna miss you.

Thats my answer.
And I appreciate
when you think back
and decide
we will remain as close friend.

Thks Syad
for been my close friend




Lala♥

Sori for the late posting.

Well went out early in the morning
went to Pasir Ris
met up with Syad.
Hang ard with him.

Den went to Ecarr cribs.
Chill there.
Talk craps.
Was taught to put the tampon correctly.
Den get ready
head down to Bugis
Went Shisha-ing
Den coincidence bump into
Ecarr frens.
Mal(Ultraman)And his fren join in
Is(HOT)Sotong join in laterWell they order
two jug of Hoegaarden(Beer)
Had a bit only.
WEll overall Dhil treat us.
hahaha.
Thks babe!
The rest of the pics at my Multiply

Den met up with Anoh.
Went to Mt Faber.
Den woish home.

Home.
Watch Bibi webcam
with his frens.
Hahaha.
LMAO.
Lol/
Den webby with Zee
hahaha.
So cute sia he.
Sepet Boy.
Lol.
He dont look 22 sia
He still have small boy look.
Damn cute!
hahahha
While webby with him
We were on the fone actually.
We're jus nuts/
hahahaha.
Den sleep at 5 am.
-_-''


To Syad,
I'm sorry
I'm aint ready yet.
I'm sorry
I can't accept ur love.
I'm sorry
cos I still want to be single.
I love my singlehood.
I dont want to rush things
when it involves loves.
Thks for been there for me.
Thks cos you had love for me.
Thks cos willingly wanting to be with me.
But I'm sorry
I can't
I hope we still be friends.

Well slept late yesterday.
On the phone with Nik
until 5am.
Den Syad call up at 8+
Asked me whether
I want to meet him.
So washed up.
Get ready.
Den head down to Pasir Ris
to meet him
Ok lah.
hahaha.
But damn he fall for me already.
But told him I'm not ready yet.
Still need time to consider.
Haha.
Ok lah den send him to work
and woish
home
sleep until 7+
haha.
Well thot gonna go chalet
but didn't
cos the old timer
is not there
n beside I fight with my mum
over the clothes
that I havent wash for weeks.
hahahha
Shoots!

Well I'm really sorry over wat
happen my dear sis.
Seriously I feel sad when it happen to u.
I nvr thot it will
happen to u.

Well gals
Guys can't be trusted 100%
Even hw long the relationship is
the guys will always have the urge
to cheat behind ur back
Thats wat happen to
my beloved sis.
Damn I pity her sia.
Darling i'll always be there for u
ok dear.


Lala♥

Seriously its time for me
to DIET!!!
Nabe.
Stupid P.M.S
Haiyo
make me eat alot
until i can't control my eating.
Shoots!
Argghh stress maut!

Okay I'm fcking
missing those 2 biatch
Hey pompan2 due ekor tu
tlg lah plan
kite hang out.
Aku rindu korang gile dan babi,
DHIL!!!
ECARR!!!
btw someone has got pay sia
She say she gonna blanja us.
hmmm.
Dhil....
hahahahha
Standard ar geng

Alright just got back
from company dinner
held at Swensen
haha.
Ok lah
Well here's the pics

Why I still hold on to it?
Why I still can't let it go?
Why I still can't stop myself
from doing the routine
that I used to do
when I'm about to sleep?
Why must I listen to your voice
when I can't sleep?
The voice that act as a lullaby.
I just can't stop doing that.
Damn it.
I can't get myself to do this
forever.
I need to stop.
I can't let my emotional carried me away.
A smile I'm faking
A laughter I've made up
All those is just to cover
my thoughts of you.
Damn
How much longer
must I bear with this feeling?
Why I can't just forget him?
Argh
I want to be my usual self back.
A girl
who is havoc
loves to laugh out loud.
A girl
who is cheeky.
A girl who knows
how to enjoy.
This is who I am
I want to be back to it.
Just have to put a stop to
all those shits of memories
of him.

Some things are not
meant to be told.
Some things are
meant for me to figure out myself.
But I just cant
and dont understand why.

I treat you
as my friend
A friend whom I confide in
aside from my fellow close friends.
I did tell you
I can only treat u as a friend
and not more.
But somehow
you can't seems to understand it.

"Sorry I can't be ur long term fren?
But why?
Why the sudden decision?
You told me
to figure out the reason
myself.
But I can't seems to see
what is it.

Damn.
Things are getting complicated.
I'm sorry Min,
I didn't mean to hurt
you .
Thks for being
there for me
when I need advise.
Thks cos u used to be my friend.
Tc!

I'm totally confused,clueless
of what is going on.
Seriously.
What is wrong with you?
Why the sudden change?
What have I done wrong
that make you treat me this way.
It feels like a nightmare
A nightmare that I would avoid.
What's my mistakes?
Argh damn it.
Forget it.
I won't chase after you.
You're just a coward.
All decision is up to you.

09 January
Well met up with Ecarr yesterday.
Accompany her went to visit
her friend's baby girl.
And the baby is damn small.
HAHA.
CUTE!!

10 January
Hangout with Dhil n Ecarr.
Went to Clarke Quay
Kind of weak.
Having slight fever
And body is restless.
Oh gosh.
Haiya!
Gonna meet up with YAN tmr!!!
Yeah!!!
Miss his voice seh.

Lala♥

Cheri sister~
ARGH!
I miss her !!!
She so close to me.
Know everything bout me.
hahaha.
Miss her terribly.
But no worries.
She coming down to my workplace
today
cos
SHE miss ME too~!!!


Ok.
Take the risk
of two hearts
Gamble with it.
I'm scared to break their heart
Two hearts.
At the end of the day
I have to choose one.
And the other to break.
I'm not ready to do that
I treasure both so much.
But I can't be selfish.
So let's just leave it to the fate.
If I meant for you
then I will.
Haiz~
Man-ne-Dok/Fi-shing-Yan

See that gal up there.
Hahaha.
I miss her lah seh.
Ecarr if you read this.
Aku rindu ko gile dan babi!
hahaha.
Secrets between you and me
Gedek2 kepe.
hahahaha.

And jyeah.
I haven't go through
the hardship of life fully.
Hmm.
The betrayal of friends.
is still new to me.
The lies they told
is normal for me
So now im not sure,
is it me or them
I hate liars.
Seriously.
Why can't they fcking tell me
the truth
rather than hide it?
I'm still thinking bout it.
The possibilities.
If you are truly
my friend
you wouldn't hide things from me
you wouldn't lie to me.
Argh
I'm not sure.
What all this lies mean to you?
What is your ultimate motives is?
What do you treat me as?
If you truly treat me as a friend
you wouldn't back-stabbed me.

So yeah
whoever feel the
pinch
your problem not mine.
hahahahaha.
Its just random.

Lala♥

Hmm.
Blur
Clueless
Question mark on my head.
Still lots of answer
tat is need to be find out
Damn it.
I'm still thinking about it.
Argh nabe lah!

Argh I know i'm confused
but seriously
arghh
HAHAHHAAHA


Hahaha.
I'm on the phone
with MAN!
hahaha.
He manage to make laugh like hell
Haha.
Damndamndamn!
Laugh till teared up.
haaha.
Oh gosh.
EE geli(with tone)
He teach me.
hahaha


Lala♥

Woaw!
Seriously now i'm totally
confused
over my heart.
Damn~
I'm not sure who i want
n what i want.
Damn it~
Getting to know guys
totally leave me in confused state..
Arghh.


1.00am
Well get back from work.
Totally late.
Too many customer.
suppose to close
at 10
but my manager
can't do it
cos too many customer still trying.
haha.
And in the end close at ard
1045pm
Nabe!
Damn tired
cos there's a whole lot of clothes
that is left to be fold
And only 3 ppl
at night were working.
But luckily there's
oe staff from taka
came down and help us
But all the hard work really pay off
cos we manage
to reached
sales up to 9K
hahaha
So jyeah.
In the end
we manage to go back ard 1245am
Damn tired!

Lala♥

Meet up with Fiqq
at yishun

Sit with him under the block
hang around
Den dhil join
Den meet up with cheri
And hang ard at her workplace
for awhile.
Whereas Fiqq N Dhil
talked
n sit somewhere else
So join them after meet up
with cheri
N after that went home.
Woishh
Man called me
we talked
laugh
and i feel much better.
K pictures at my multiply
aite


I hate it when "you"
having that feeling towards "me"
Its just not my thing.
Thats just ain't me.
"your" jealousy is killing me.
We're nobody.
"you" aint my guy
N "me" aint ur gal.
So why must "you "
have that possessive feeling
on "me"
damn it.
Seriously "me" hate it.
Argh dont noe lah
I just really not sure.
the laughter,
the smile
are just killing "me"
not sure why.
I just hate having this kind of feeling
Hate it
cos it can ruin everything.
Damn it.
STOP!

Happy New Year
Went out with Zul.
He brought me to west coast park
den
to Henderson Bridge.
He's funny,charming,n happy-go-lucky
kind of guy.
haha.
but at times is irritating.
hahahaha.
But enjoy the day
We're just friends


After tat met up with the
Rascals.
Had dinner at Mad jack cafe
Had fun.
Nice food the had there.
Worth ur money.
Fun
Full of laughter.
Den we're seperated.
*sob-sob*
hahaha.

Ok skip the part abt the fcking incident at
East Coast Park.
Spoilt my mood,
Damn it.

Moving on.
Decided to meet with Najib
City hall
but change to Vivo
since city hall is pack.
So went there with Dhil.
Ok lah.
Funny bunch of ppl
(sori dhil cos you cant click with them)
Thought of join them
open bottle
but forget it
cos its already late.
N dhil is hungry
So we make a move n not join them to Hotparks
for a drinking session.

So there you go.
All pics at my multiply.
Go to my link's of ppl.
♥Multiply



New Resolution:
-Save Save Save
-Change my attitude
-No more fling ard'(if i were to be attach)
-Make more friends.
-Want to go back school!!!
hahahaha

Goodbye to 2008
Forget all
the sorrows
remember all the laughters
Forget all the pain.
Moved on
Open new chapter of 2009
N tats it!

Lala♥