Why I still hold on to it?
Why I still can't let it go?
Why I still can't stop myself
from doing the routine
that I used to do
when I'm about to sleep?
Why must I listen to your voice
when I can't sleep?
The voice that act as a lullaby.
I just can't stop doing that.
Damn it.
I can't get myself to do this
forever.
I need to stop.
I can't let my emotional carried me away.
A smile I'm faking
A laughter I've made up
All those is just to cover
my thoughts of you.
Damn
How much longer
must I bear with this feeling?
Why I can't just forget him?
Argh
I want to be my usual self back.
A girl
who is havoc
loves to laugh out loud.
A girl
who is cheeky.
A girl who knows
how to enjoy.
This is who I am
I want to be back to it.
Just have to put a stop to
all those shits of memories
of him.