♥♥Confession From My Lil heart

Pissed!

2010-03-01T21:25:00.001+08:00

Im fcking pissed off with myself.
Let it go .
Urghhhh !!
damn ass la...
Why its always have to b tis complicated.
4 mths n we still this way .
fight.fight .fight .fight.
den back together.
damn it la .
fck u la.
i hate myself.

Final Goooddd BYE

2010-01-15T13:12:00.004+08:00

Hey hey hey hey ~

Hmm ..
I can't believe that i can make that decision
to leave you ..
I 'm sorry .
Yesterday is the most sweetest things you ever did .
You asked me out
N bring me
to the place that have lots of memories of us.
Kallang river ..
Like you said to me
That is the first place where
you bring me to date
n yesterday seems like the final time
we going there ..
*sobsob*
It totally bring back the memories when we sit there ..
You told me abt ur family
n how you will still support
everything i do
eventhough we no longer together as a couple..

The msg ..
You text me aft tat whether is there still chance for us to be back together.
But ,
I just replied i dont think so ..
I broke down.
Baby
u knw its damn hard for me to make that decisions
especially when u told me tat ur x contact you .
I tried my best not to let my emotions control me ..
I missed u
I still love u thats for sure
but i can't be with you .
thats the best decisions for us .
Sometimes i want to call u n come back to u
but i cant let history repeat itself .
Enough said.
Its better we become friends .

P/S; you'realwaysinmymind.

ARRR~

2010-01-04T12:22:00.003+08:00

I don't know who to TRUST,
urggggghhhh!!
i wrongly accused my boyfie .
damn u nigga ..
And he's fucking mad with me now .
But what should i do
seriously ..
I'm tired of fighting .

Darling im so so sori ..
I didn't mean to accuse u .
but ..
im sori :(

Complicated'

2009-12-23T11:42:00.003+08:00

What can i say ..
my life is effing complicated ..
one point of time im leaving you
n next im back with you ..
How am i leaving you
wen u're too hard to resist.
How am i gonna put in words abt us
that is sure not working out .
I just can't
Every time we meet up
i just can't bring myself
to let out everything
that is in my mind .
It just hard for me to trust you .
All the words u say
All the things u do
seems to be lie.
Im not sure when is the time
you speaking the truth
wen u can lie almost to everyone including ur family ..
That night .
I've come to the decisions
that im gonna leave
that this the last time i'll be in your house
the last time im seeing you ..
But as im running away from you
you're trying to make things right
but still not enough .
Like i say
our relationship is not like any other couples.
Our's just full of pain n lies.
But a bit of happiness ..
Should i give you another chance
or shall i just leave you
I still not sure .
Like many ppl say
why must i still stick with u
wen there's a lot of guys
which i can choose
I just can't answer .
You mark my heart
but u break it hard.
You choose lust over love .
And you just don't even care my feelings.
Contacting other girls
when you with me
How the hell should i feel .
Baby ,
grab me bfr u lose me .
I just can't afford to make another mistakes ..
I've gone thru alot with u
I've sacrifice anything for you
But do you appreciate it?
Do you even care ?

I just want a happy relationship .

Condolences

2009-12-15T12:43:00.002+08:00

Condolences to their family..
Its unexpected ..
They gone too soon ..
eventhough im not that close with them
but
they still my friends..
That shows how short life is .
We too engrossed with our daily lifestyle
tat we forget
abt GOD.
We forget the things
that we shudnt do .
We forget our motives in life.

Semoga roh mereka di kalangan org2 yg beriman .
Amin ..

....

2009-12-11T23:28:00.004+08:00

How i wished i could turn back time.
How i wished i dont have to make decisions.
How i wished i dont regret in my decisions.
How i wished i dont miss u .
How i wished i could repeat the story of me n u.

But..

Its over .I guess.
Reckless in making decisions.
But i can't afford
to disappoint my loves one,
that always concern when im with u .
I've promised them
I'll leave u .
They can see the bad things in u
but i can't
I guess love got me blinded .

But

i never regret in loving you .
And i know im stupid .

istillloveubutihvtoleaveu

Imissu.ohgod.

Thousand apologies..

2009-11-30T20:55:00.004+08:00

Well friendship was broken?

I'm truely sorry

if you think that i've torn u n her apart.

I'm really sorry ..

I didn't mean to break u gals apart seriously.

N i know u knw her way longer than i do .

n I'm sorry if my presence

drift u n her away ..

But I really didn't want that to happen ..

I never torn u gals apart.

She still treat u as her best bby gfs..

I didn't know abt tis

till i read abt your blog..

U accuse me of something i didn't do.

Babe,

Never in my mind to do that kind of thing.

I treat u as part of the gfs

that i had.

Its all misunderstanding..

I didn't expect her to be so close with me

until we both have been sharing problems with each other

not only the two of us but the rest of the gfs too

the ucb gals.

Babe,

you're old enough to judge wats going on..

But i still hope we still friends.

Seriously im so so sorry ..

Zewllloooooo

2009-11-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

Fahmi make me laugh :D

Back .. Blogging.

Yeah i knw its jus a few weeks together n its over.
wat cn u expect .
2times break/patch thingy .
And tis time round its for real .
We breaking up for gd.

Friends?
Aha.
I dont knw bout tat.
I wan to but
I dont knw how to .
its hard
wen u been all lovey dovey
n suddenly u hv to cross the line
n keep in mind
tat we are no longer together .
well well well ..
wat more can i say ..
i still love you .
n will wait for u .
And i know its a stupid thing
but no one understand it
more than i do .

Hearts

2009-11-05T23:56:00.004+08:00

it's still early to say it .
But i love u .
Paranoid .
But i kicked it away.
L.o.v.e
What it stands for?
yeah like everyone say
it is always sweet at the beginning of everything
n the the end of it
was yet to know.
Well oh well
lets enjoy the part of it first .

Splendid 19 Bday

2009-11-01T04:28:00.002+08:00

Seriously it was a SURPRISE FOR ME !!!
thks to my bestie n whoever who helped to plan it out..

Was suppose to go Night Safari but can't
cos we have to book the tix first ..
lol

N unexpectedly when i was hm with Yanti ,
was a BIG shock once i enter my room
they were there:D
hehehe!!
with balloon all over my bed
and the decoration
went karaoke.
*was totally happy cos someone call me at the strike of midnite*
*wide smile*
thks darlingg!

BBQ

2009-10-20T14:38:00.002+08:00

BBQ surprise for BONC,MK,KETAM

hahaa.
was indeed a perfect one..
pics at FB

Next up event:ICE SKATING

More info visit new blog created for the KMs
http://flamboyant-amigos.tumblr.com/

Raya[Kecoh]

2009-10-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

Was out raya with the usual peeps..
plan was actuali ard 16 ppl ..
but den some join a bit late..
Was suppose to meet up at 230 at bt pjg ..
But den some people was late
n so everyone meetup at almost4 +
woaaw..

and ystd was damn full
almost every huse
has something to eat ..
N feel pity cos i can't eat all up
And we went ard 11 huse in total
And by the time we reached last huse is at 3+

So tats all i guess. nites

Unresolved Situation`

2009-10-08T17:45:00.002+08:00

Moving on so fast.
Never thought of the upcoming outcomes .
Never strike in the mind what would happen next.
Everything just happen so fast.
Nothing can be said or done.
It happened.
Regret ..
yeah maybe.
What i want
What ive said
is totally 2 different things.
Part of me
I still missed him
Part of me
want to move on .

Ok .
you guys gonna be bored by my daily life
cos everything that happen
is just like a mean cycle.
It happen again .

Nobody will know abt this.

Confused~

2009-09-29T23:05:00.002+08:00

How i wished i can let out everything here...
I really do..
Hmm . .
there's many i want to let out
but i can't.
No one can understand my situation
No.One.
Seriously.
i'm too young for "this"
but i dont tink so
I'm ready to settle dwn i guess.
But
Status of it.
Age of it.
Background of it.
I really dont knw .
How bout my family acceptance of it.
Will it be gd in future?
I hv no idea seriously.
I'm jus scared i make a wrong decision.

bye.

Shucks~

2009-09-26T02:44:00.002+08:00

Feels like shit.
I can't sleep .
Insomnia!
I wanna call ppl
but my ppd is low.
And i hate it damn F-Tut very much .
GRRR!!

And menses add on to it.
seriously !

bye swagger.

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya
to everyone..
Maaf zahir dan batin ..
lau terkasar bahasa harap di maaf kn yah..

Went to Geylang on the eve of raya..
one word.
PACK.
But it was a great bargain we got there..
k bye.

Sick`

2009-09-17T19:24:00.003+08:00

Having flu,sore throat n diarrhoe..
Get 2 days MC..
lol .
And im freaking bored..
K ..
I really miss _____________
Its hard to get it out of my head.
k bye.

Erase & Rewind

2009-09-15T00:55:00.003+08:00

Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name,
Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand,
Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend,
Remember now he's just your friend

Let out~

2009-09-14T01:24:00.006+08:00

Was out ystd with my Bestie..
She bring me over to Flyover..
Felt way much better..
Let out everyting there ..
She just so swit..
been there for me no matter wat..
love her loads..
Aft that met up with peeps..
went bowling.
learn driving.
go for our supper.
Den home.
Not enuf sleep ..

It really hurts when you expected so much more
from the person you once loved so much.

i didnt expect that word would be from u.
Seriously ..
out of so many words
y must tat been said to me.
its really disheartening.
Eventhough i say i act as if i dont give a damn
with wat u say to me.
but deep down
it hurts
hurts so bad.
Yeah ppl keep on telling me
to move on
but its easier to be said than done.
And i dont know why
i can't make myself hate u .
U meant so much to me
but i tink its time
for me to put a stop to everyting.
too much tears ive cried.
too much ego
too much misunderstanding,
I;m trying hard to get it off my head.
but it seems hard..
oh god.

BIK!!

2009-09-10T21:29:00.004+08:00

I MISS MY BESTIE N BBY GALS!!

i need her hug!! :(

Idonthinkineedyoutosaythosewordstome

amnotgivingup
buttryingtomoveon..
bye.

Date'

2009-09-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

What's your dream date gonna be ?

hmm
i knw its random ..
but
its been going ard my mind for days..
hahaha
been asking ard abt it ..
Hmm ..
intersting ..

Me..
Wat i've always wanted is
someone who will bring me on date..
Eating oreo cheesecakes while watching sunset..
K i knw its bullshit..
but thinking of it
isn't it swwwwiit??
hmm
haha..

k ppl
cheers :)

Carik Kutu `

2009-09-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

Friday n Sat.
Met up with the ppl ..
Hang ard at holland v..
Till late nite rite aft work ..
Promised mum by 130 will be hm ..
But drag till 330.
haha..

Sat..
Midnite movie.
Final Destination 3D
Was fun watching with the peeps.
haha
13 ppl conquer the theater..
haha..
Damnnn CHAOS!!
Suppppperrrr...
At Jln kayu..
and home sweet not home..

Love ppl!

Kutu Malam

2009-08-27T01:54:00.002+08:00

Spend my tue n wed nites
with the peeps..
Went to Geylang for two days straight..
Camwhore.
Lepaks at Sengkang,
Next day lepaks at city hall..

Well not much to update..
Pics at Facebook :))

Cry

2009-08-24T22:29:00.003+08:00

Had me convinced that I just wasn't enuff,
me and you fussing and fighting cussin
all of that stuff now I know,
tht I mightve dun you wrong,
didn't know I'd pay so long,
till u did the same
I know I'd done u wrong I was making it up to u,
I apologized in a million ways but I thought that was that,
but I guess u got me back,
didn't know it'd be like that, but u did the same

Now we're caught in a circle
A constant battle
The day that u hurt me
The clouds cast a shadow on us
And I hope that ur happy we're even now, so cry baby cry

Let me see you Cry cry cry
I need to see u cry cry cry
Until your tears run dry dry dry
Like the deserts need the rain
Want ya tears to fall down on me

Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away

What is this,
what happens to relationships,
started off so good and ended up so bad
baby I just wanna know,
OoH Tell me do u know, baby
Before we knew it we were at it again,
no no no,
somehow I don't think we can ever be friends, wish it wasn't so
Wish it wasn't so, but u did the same...

So we go on and on on this merry go round
trying to chase a love that can never be found
time to say goodbye and step off of it now,
It's over girl it's over (x2)

Let me see you Cry cry cry
I need to see u cry cry cry
Until our tears run dry dry dry
Like the deserts need the rain
Want ur tears to fall down on me (x2)
Before the love just turns to hate
Before I ask for u to stay
And just before u walk away

2009-08-21T19:33:00.002+08:00

Was on webcam with JonN!
An online gd friend of mine:))

Met-up with usual peeps ystd.
To have supper together
bfr puasa ..
Yeah ..
Was a last min plan ..
Den head to hillview
This time its the guys
who wants to xplore
and left me n yanti in the car alone..
HAIYOO
Nerve-wrecking moments.

haha.
Anyway
SELAMAT BERPUASA to All MUSLIM Frends Of mine..
Muacks!

And to the usual peeps..
Dont forget to plan to break fast together !!

Till den ..

Boredom`

2009-08-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

Had 2 days off days!!
woohoo!!
Can relax..
Sleep sleep sleep..

Yesterday was damn bored!
LIKE SERIOUSLY!!
My mum went to Jb
without telling me!
grr!!
and i woke up
And nobody was home.
ZZZZ!!

But tdy
went out with Mum!
Went to geylang.
Manage to get a tailor
haha!!
Last min!
This year theme is baby blue.
Make 1 kebaya and 1 Baju kurong..
And someone say he also want to wear baby blue!
LOL!
hahahahahah!!
Anyway fasting days is coming real soon..
Jus can't wait for this year Raya..
Cos of my new BELOVED GUYS
who always make our weekends
a happening one.
Hearts them lots!
MWAH!!

IMY

Nites went on..

2009-08-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

Pepsi Cola One Two 3

Yesterday we were having
surprise advance bday for Faizul
at Cash Studio Karaoke..
Thks to Ariff n Fahmi n the geng
for inviting us over to celebrate together.
And as expected,
bday boy(or shud i say MAN haha)
was damn surprised.
Maybe he didn't expect his friends
to do this for him ..
Sing-A-Long session !!
haha..
it was fun
cos there's lot of ppl joining us tat nite.
Ard 12+ ppl..
So we left at ard 11
And head to Sengkang
to send Ira back.
She was a sweet gal(kn fahmi knknkn)
haha..
Den we head to Yishun dam.
And there 3 more cars join us.
So make up total 5 cars n 2 bikes.
WOOHHOO!!

We plan to go elsewhere.
So 1 car left first
to head home...
the rest of 4 cars still on.
hehe.
And end up we decide to lepaks
at Changi Beach.
By the time left 7 ppl..
But still havoc.
Play games..
Someone becoming legong tat nite.
haha
So reach home by 5+
and i sneak in the house..
shhh!!
lol

Thks to the guys for making every one of the weeks
full of joy n entertainment..
They just a sweetheart!

:))

2009-08-13T02:22:00.004+08:00

Feeling fucked up,upset and disappointed.

ARGH!

is it me or god just want me to see the truth
so that i can moved on.
Its damn hard-breaking when i saw all that.
Why am I feeling this way .
I dont know.
I guess it was a wrong moves to put on high hopes.
And now believe me
I'll be gone for good
this time round.
Eventhough I've yet to hear the truth
but i just can't bother
to asked about it.

Goodbye.Thank you.Have a nice day.

Weekends~

2009-08-10T23:28:00.002+08:00

HOLA!!
Updates for the weekends.

Sat-080809
I was home straight after work
Damn shagged.
So opt to go home straight
and take a nap.
Was asleep till 8plus.
Am supposed to meet Khai
to accompany him to have his dinner.
But fell asleep..
hehehe.
Sorry bro.
Didn't mean to paitau u ..
Received a call from Yanti
And it was actually Faizul on the line..
Asked me to tagged along with them
driving n riding as usual...
They fetched me at home ard 12+
And whooish off we go.
There's ard 10 ppl tat nite.
Kind of bored with the exploring.
Should have hang ard the beach instead
Rather than waste time n petrol!
lol
Anyway still enjoy the gang companion.
And home bfr 5am.

Sunday-090809
Slept like a pig..
Till i received a call
from Zool!
Asking me whether wan to meet up
since he's going Brunei
Am sad cos he told me last min:(
Anyway i an only meet him for a while
since I have plans with my fren.
So he drop by my area
N chill for awhile.
Home.
Get ready.
was supposed to meet Ann at 415
But..
Dragged till 6 pm.
Aiyoo
Sempat aku tido.
lol
haha
Anyway ,
Met up with Ann n his friend + Gf.
Went S'pore flyer
to watch fireworks
n off to Shisha.

*Sori no pics for this time round cos my cam is left in the car*

Sentosa~

2009-08-05T23:45:00.001+08:00

At last we went to sentosa!!
woohoo..
It was actuali a treat for the guys,
Since they've been the one
who has always treat us..
Now its our turn..
Bikini.
Not a sexy Body.
Abg body .
Afterall it was fun .
Especially the truth or dare session..
lol..
nvr thot i wud teared up
wen they ask me question..

After which we went for our dinner
at Seah Im ..
And head to WCP.
Chiill there.
And home.

Thks for the day guys.
It really make our day.

Ghost Busted Us

2009-08-01T17:14:00.005+08:00

Was out yesterday
With the guys..
As usual explore.
Went to Siglap Road..
Den head to Old Chua Chu Kang
Goosebumps!
aaiyooO!
Was actuali fun ..
And tiring.
Was home by 4 am.

5th August Party Baby!!

Woohhhoo!!

2009-07-27T10:37:00.002+08:00

YEs-A!!!
I just got a new piercing !!
N yeah i love it!!
but the healing period is horrible..
but i guess i hv to bear wit it like 1 mth more!
haahha.

anyway to BBy Gal..
I will always be there for u dear.
No matter wat happen
We will still support u .
Dont let him bring u down ..
And dont let him make a fool of urself !
B u must stay strong aite!
muacks !

And to Meimei ,
Dont be childish .
If u love this relationship
try to understand him more.
Seriously u becoming more n more like Ben
U know tat dont u !
He's a gd guy i can c..
He trying his best to try to make u happy
n i can see he try to give in to u
MOST OF THE TIME!
U jus acting like an asshole !
Idiot!
And yeah i know u nid attention
i understand
all girls need attention !
But u hv to tink maturely
it impossible for u to meet him everyday
u're working n he's schooling.
so yeah
think abt it .
Jus say sorry k !
Love ya mei!!

Love my piercing!!

Outing`

2009-07-24T01:25:00.003+08:00

Well am thankful
cos I have friends like them ..
I didnt expect them
to be so sweet to me n the gals..
Damn lucky
cos they knw hw to respect us
And treat us like their own family..
I hope the friendship will last..

Nxt plan : Sentosa!! haha
Can't wait!!

Friendship which i treasure

Enjoy life!!

2009-07-20T01:20:00.003+08:00

Well been long since I've update.

170709-Fri
Met up with Yanti
after work .
Hang ard with Ariff and the Gang
At town ..
Chill at Far East.
Treat Yanti to Ramen Ten !
Yum yum ..
Last min plan ..
Decided to go Shisha.
Den followed by Exploring!!

Woohhoo
Enjoy it lots!!
2 cars 1 bike.
Was out all day..
after that we head to Al-Azhar
Since its 24 hr..
N reached home at 5 again..

180709-Sat
Went to work
with swollen eyes.
Tired.
Not enuf sleep .

190709
Happy Bday to Yanti!
Plan plan plan for the bday gal ..
She was sad when I reach work ..
Well after work,
blindfolded her once we reached
Lau Pau Sat.
She only know there is 3 ppl together
but actuali more than tat
Am so glad all of us make her smile
And unexpectedly Her Boyfie
is there too..
Hehehehe..
Hope she had a great day!!

I 've lots of decisions to make!

Am bored`

2009-07-13T19:01:00.003+08:00

OK i damn bored.
Am at work.
And these two idiots are having fun with me.
ZZZZ

Ok now everyone is teasing me abt me n eezul!!
like wth!
Seriously we jus F.R.I.E.N.D.!!!
No way am i attracted to him
haiyo!
its jus a comment
haiyo boiyo!
hahaha

aniway!
I'm gettign chubbier!
like SERIOUSLY!

N my meimei is MOLESTING ME!!!
Arghh!!

Am ecstatic!

Am done`

2009-07-12T22:24:00.009+08:00

It's not about who's right or who's wrong
It's not about who's weaker
or who's strong
It's not about who's innocent
or who's fault
It aint really bout
that kinda thing at all

It's not about who does it or done it
or did it to who
Dont matter if the both of you lose
It's really not bout nothing
except for me and you
It's about drama and love and 'lationships
and when the going gets tough
you deal with it
and you dont ever walk away
from it you hold on you be strong

It's about drama and trust
and making it if your somebody
messed up you dig it in
dont let nobody come between you
you just stay with it
you hold on
and be strong and hold on,
yes you do

It's not about the stupid things that we say
Were always saying stupid things anyway
It's not about the secrecy of the lines
Everybody got a secret to hide
It's not about who was it who was she
who's creeping on who
Wont matter if the both of us lose
It's really not bout nothing,
except for me and you

Aint bout your pride
Aint bout yourself
It's bout you do it to
and none else
Aint bout the her
Aint bout the lies
Aint bout the crazy things
thats running through your mind
It's bout the love that supposed to last and never dies

Am done here!Goodbye?!

Guilty~

2009-07-11T06:04:00.004+08:00

Well...
Someone was sick..
N i suppose to meet him ystd
aft work..
But i say i DONT promised..
So yeah..
Instead i went out
with the Gfs n Bfs..
And I feel guilty
wen he say that i cancel my plans
to meet him
cos I finish work late
but den i went out with
my Gfs n Bfs...
Aiyo
but my fren is in nid
so yeah I have to be there for her
But am glad
he understands.

Aniway I'm glad tat June is feeling
better aft she went to
Karaoke with me n yanti n the guys.....
Thks Ariff and the gang
aniway
for making it happen tooo..
haha..
Kind of enjoying it too..
Muacks nite

Have to bear with the tiredness..2hrs to work.

Kalah-Ok!

2009-07-08T19:41:00.002+08:00

Gobelok!!

K was busy with work .
Last Monday
went to karaoke
Thks for the treat Ee-zul!
haha.
Thks to Yanti and Dayanna
asked me to tag along.

Aniway.
Been busy with work
Today my off day.
So bored.
Spent time cleaning up the huse.
Download songs.
N yeah he has to work.
So i'm like -_____________-!!!
HaiyoO!!

gET BACK MY 5800 nOKIA PHONE!!

OK!
Bye
I wan to watch korean drama!

Life is always unfair.

Too-dles

2009-07-05T20:26:00.004+08:00

Friday 0307
Was out with my BBY GFs.
Watch midnight movie-Transformer.!!(For the 2nd time)
Was great watching with them.

Sat 0407
Went to my cousin house.
His wedding.
Kind of tiring.
Cos have to wake up early
Stay there till 11pm
Den head home..

Am kind of ma cos my phone 5800
which i sent for repair
is nowhere to be found
LIKE WTH.
GRR!!

Sunday 0507
Eat eat eat
Wedding
tired.

Am-Sponge-Bob

2009-06-29T22:53:00.008+08:00

HI ALLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK MJ dead!

Well been busy with work .
So sorry didnt update.
Aniway ntg much happening
Jus becoming workaholic .
Love my colleagues!!
OMG THEY JUS FAB-U-LOUS(with the accent)

Gonna perm my hair!
well ....

I miss ALL MY RASCALS!!
Like SERIOUSLY?!
lol

Am so upset with an old frend of mine.
She realli changed
Snobbish.
Well she has her happiness
and forget all her friends.
like WTH!!

Theres a reason for me not trust.

Sat'Nite

2009-06-14T11:36:00.004+08:00

After work.
Lepak-ing with Khai n Sam
At Esp.
Coincidentally bump into
Shahir n Khair.
X-Schoolmates.
Went to Marina Barrage.
And head home.

Well patience is running out.
K.
Bye.

Shopping`

2009-06-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

Next pay:

Pay Outstanding bill-$500+
Pay Mum-$400

Shopping:
Highlight hair-$60
Watch(Ripcurl/Levis)-$150-200

Have to save:200-For room renovation.
Ughhh!!!!

Lots of things to settle.
Hope I can make it!

Boom Boom Pow

2009-06-07T22:24:00.003+08:00

Hey people!
Am back.
Blogging
Sorry late upadates.
Been busy with work.

Well new resolution.
I'm gone lose weight
by hook or by crook.
gonna lose those fats.
hurhurhur.

Well Saturday nite.
Was out with Fam
to Ikea.
Gonna renovate my room
bfr puasa.
Well been planning with mama
wat to buy.
Hmm.
MOney!

Den off to meet dhil at j.e
Took a bus
to West coast park.
Chill.
Dance our ass off.
Singing like a monkey business.
Den Off to spiderWeb Playground.
Haha.
DHIL FIRST ATTEMPT SUCCESS
Hahhaa.
Den head to Mc.
Bought supper.
And whooish home.

Today went to jogging with dhil
for the very first time
aft Idunchknwhwmanyyears.
hahaha.
Well it was great.
Sorry babe my pace is slow.
hehe.

Trust trust trust pls trust me

Love.Biatch

2009-05-27T00:41:00.002+08:00

Was out meet Nad.
Had our lunch at LJS
Den head to Keppel Bay.
Short distance walk.
Cam-whoring.
Talk it out.
Well I missed all my Rascals.
Haiz.
Everybody changing.
Had own life to lead.
Well gonna hv outing nxt mth.
So Rascals get ur money prepared.
Cos we gonna enjoy like hell

Pics at FB

XxxMiss those daysxxX

A nite`

2009-05-24T23:24:00.004+08:00

Updates for few days back.

Thurs(22/05)
Out with him.
Went to Keppel Bay.
Spend the time there.
Relax.
Chill.
N whoishh home.
He went JB.
Thot of meeting him again aft tat
to have the mac breakfast.
But den
couldn't make it.
But its ok.

Saturday(23/05)
Work.
Was hungry aft work.
Mummy didn't really cook.
She was out with my sis.
Damn hungry.
So was out to eat with him .
And he bought satay for my family.
Hang ard for awhile.

So well today.
Ntg much
tired.
K bye.

XxxStuckxxX

I'm Back.

2009-05-14T15:37:00.002+08:00

Well been trying
to log in my acct
but can't
due to the stupid cookies.
Damn it
Aniway gonna update for the past few days.

9May 09

Plan for Niz n Fiz Bday
surprise party.
Unfortunately Fiz can't make it
due to her family plans.
*sob~Sob*
Miss her though.
Aniway carry on with the plan.
Sufi fetch me up.
Bought Niz cake.
Went to Vivo.
Thought we were late.
But actually the rest is late as well.
So waited for the rest.
Den whooish to the
Pacific Coffee Cafe.
Found seats.
Fuihyoo
Lucky.
Cos it is packed.
While waited for Niz to come.
We prepare everything.
She was surprise
that we actually planned it for her.
After thaat thot of going movies,
But cancelled.
Thot of going bowling,
But scared it is packed,
So end up we went to Esplanade.
Hang ard there.
Cam-whoring.
And whooishy
He sent me back home.
The rest go by mrt.

10-12 May 09
Stayed home.
Sleep like oink2.
Missed him.
Damn.
Well been spending time
watching shows online.
Downloading songs.
haiyoo!

13 May09
Back to benetton.
Happy to work there.
but still thinking whether I shud
go for full time/Part time.
Damn.
haha.
Anyway took pics
With monkey June.
hahaha.
Den head home.
Watch Upin & Ipin.
Cute character.
ahahaha.
Watch The hills.
Favourite.

14 May 09
Wake up late.
Watch Naruto.
Wel tmr working.
yippee!!
K bye folksy!

Sayings`

2009-04-30T15:49:00.002+08:00

No1 can define
what is the true meaning of
LOVE…
A simple 4 letter word
with a deep meaning
that no1 can explain
but once said, others will understand…
All that I can say
in my own words
are that LOVE
cannot be seen nor touch
but it can be felt by the heart…
It cannot be force
nor can it be bought…
Nothing can stand in the way
even death doesn’t stop any1
from loving the dead…
But only time heals
the pain of a brokenheart
when the love ones are being taken away…
Love doesn’t based on
how many sacrifices one takes
but on what they are willing to sacrifice…
For me, I live having this mind set
“ when u Love some1, set ‘em free…
Smile in front of ‘em even wen it hurts,
hide your sadness to c ‘em happy.”
I’ve learn that even
if I’m not hurt today
being left by the ones dat I love,
one day GOD will take ‘em away too…
So, LOVE HURTS AT THE END OF THE ROAD… NO MATTER WHAT

Yeah true.
Got it from a frend profile.
Meaningful.
Sure its the fact.
Love and the sacrifices.

XxxLovexxX

ShehulkHe

2009-04-27T22:14:00.004+08:00

Well am sori didnt reply to
anyone of your msges.
Been busy.
Aint longer using old no.
So for those who msg
my old no.
Sori wont be able to reply u
until nxt day.
Cos i dont really check tat phone.

Aniway been going
to n from hospital.
thank god
dad's been transfer to normal ward.
After 2 days at Care unit.

Wont been meeting
any of the peeps tis few weeks.
Sori.
Will be busy with work.
Full shft all the way.
4 days straight.
Imagine how tedious it is.
Its been long time
since i ve enjoy myself.
But i think better tat way.
Save A WHOLE LOT OF $

Well miss my peeps n biatches.
Sori aint able to spend time u
biatches.
too many commitment.
Commitment with work n family.
Well been missing him lots.
Tmr is the day!
Hospital with him.
yippee

XxxSorixxX

Smile`

2009-04-23T21:27:00.003+08:00

Well smile.
My wish do come true.
When i hope u're on MC
ahaha.
U really are.
So jyeah love it.

Outs.
Movie.
Jangan Tegur.
Ok sound effect cool.
At last mly movies getting better.
Should Watch!!
Ok tats it folks.
Gonna watch The Hills now.
tata

XxxLet him be a mysteryxxX

Otw`

2009-04-23T01:10:00.003+08:00

After work,
Drop by AMK.
As usual he fetch me.
Rained.
U-turn to his house.
Took raincoat.
Sit for a while
while waiting for the rained to cool dwn.
Took the gamble.
Just ride in the rained.
Wet.
Cold.
N here i am whooish homey.
Wohoo today im off!

Hope you gonna take MC.
hahahahah.

XxxxTake things slowxxX

Busy`

2009-04-12T11:21:00.004+08:00

Sori for the late updates.
Busy with work
and some stuff which is haunting me.
-_________-
Well forget abt it.
Its over aniway.
Plans?
Hmm not sure what.
Might be going holiday
next month.
Relieve stress.
Take a break from work.
And met up with my ex-working-buddy

Problem after another.
Trying to forget everything.
The trust I gave
you destroyed just like tat.
You earned my respect bfr
but now the respect is gone.
I jus cant be botheres by this stupid motherfukersonofthebitchofallbitches.
Fuck lah.

And I know Ive been busy with work
And will continue this way.
Money is all I needed.
Cant be bothered with life.
No life??
Dont think so.
Working life teach me lots of things
the truth of life
it should be.
And I know I'm still young
to concentrate too much on work.
But i dont give a damn to enjoy life.
With work I can see everything.
And might not be going out for sometimes.

Rascals.
Everyone changing.
Not gonna be the same
anymore.
Well what can I say.
Everybody have its own life.
Will meet up soon.

Aniway now I know what i've been missing of.
The tenderlovingcare.
hahahahahah!~lol

P/s:I think i want him.Can?haha
IMYSM.

New phone`

2009-04-05T23:38:00.004+08:00

Eventually
thot of getting Nokia 5800
but den
receive many feedback
tat the phone sucks.
So decided to take LG Renoir KC910
touch phone.haha

Easy to use
okok lah
8 megapixel.
with flash and evrything.
muahahaha.
Love it.

Meeting nad tmr n maybe the two's
not sure
c hw bah.
nites bod-doh

NewyorkNewyork`

2009-04-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

Met with the twos.
Ecarr house.
Play pet society.
Dhil join in;
Ecarr got to go.
Left me and dhil.
Wandering ard JP
jus to find the bloody ATM.
Cant find.
Hungry.
Tired.
Ate New york New york.
Yum`yum.
hahaha.
Den got Candy floss free.
And whoish home.tired.
BYe

Updates`

2009-04-03T12:09:00.002+08:00

Oops sori for the late updates.
Been busy with work.
Aniway Hapi belated bday to Nad.
Will meet ya soon aite.

Not sure what to update lah.
waliao wei,
Err..

Its true that I dont trust ur story.
Its true that I doubt everything.
But you know why.
I want to help you,
But I dont want ppl to think
tat I'm an idiot.
But after all you're my friend.
So jyeah
I give it another try.
I try my best to trust you .
But no promises.

Aniway work wise.
Well those ppl im close with
has quit.
Day by day
ppl leaving the job;
Damn.
I miss the fun
wen I first step in the shop.
There's something missing
when they're gone.
Laughter is no longer livelier.
There's no mood to work when
all this happen.
But I have to.
Money is my main issue.
Thanks babe for the advise
bfr u go .
I will always noted wat u say.
maybe ur attitude to other ppl
is bad.
But when it's abt you and me
you have been treating me damn gd
and teach me lots of things.
Ppl may hate you
but i knw im not going to
cos its all in the past.
As long as u dont do this to me
I'll be fine.
We will still be frends.

Ok`

2009-03-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

Ok.bored.
Ecarr=KL.
Ein=KL.
Kai=Bali.
Well all of them went off for short trip.
Bored.
Missed.
Waiting.
Waiting for my souvenirs.
Wakaka.
Aniway gonna have a new phone soon.
Surprise!
(Ecarr sori aku beli dulu,tunggu ko lambat)
wakaka.
hahah.

P/s:I'm back to track.

Out`

2009-03-25T23:38:00.001+08:00

OT.
Too hardworking.
Come back work on off day.
wakakaka.
Out with Ecarr
Funny!
haha
Dinner=Pizza Hut
Movie=Coming soon.
Best!
Sound effect like sickening.
Nabe.
hahaha.
Walk to Funan.
Clarke Quay.
Resign letter for Ecarr
Home.
Bye.

P/s:Two is just fun!haha

Excited`

2009-03-22T23:30:00.003+08:00

Well plans.
Anxious abt it.
Love the idea of it.
N can't wait for it.

Well Nad's bday is coming.
Can't wait for it.
I hope I can join the plan.
But seems like I'm working lah dey.
hahaha.

Aniway.
Tired.
K bye belly's!!
Haha

P/s:Woohoo!
2 weeks!

Lies`

2009-03-19T23:45:00.001+08:00

I didn't expect
iit will come from you,
I didn't expect you would destroy
my trust on you.
Why must there be a lie?
Why must I found out from someone else?
And why must you hurt her?

She's a nice girl.
Eventhough I have not met her,
But i know she's innocent,
as innocent as me.
What have she done to deserve this?
What are my mistakes
that u lie to me?
Sorry I didnt mean to destroy
ur relationship with her
but all she need is truth
jus what i need form u.
So I think its best
if I stop contacting you
bfr i've been accuse as a third party.
Sori but bye!

P?s:I wished i still can treat you
as my best buddy
but i dont think so.

Sick`

2009-03-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

Well.
Down with flu,cough,back-ache,fever(come and go)
wakakaka.
Aniway caught with nad yesterday
on the phone with her.
Well lots of story I have to say.
Am so sorry babe
cos I aint there with you.
Aniway I will visit ur mum
when im feeling much better k.

Aniway.
Friendship.
Wat has it turn into?
What is going on?
Misunderstanding?
Why must we let our emotions take control over us?
Why must u hear just one side of the story?
And please,
Why are you so heartless to break off the friendship?
And whats more you n her has been frens for much longer.
Jealousy?
Aha.
Maybe.
I may not be there
to know the whole story,
but for all i care,
I wont break off the frendship jus like tat.
Stop with all ur hypocrite.
Pls lah.
Ppl concern abt you.
After all that you have went thru.
But look at how u respond
to our concern and care?
It just make ppl cant be bothered with u.
You jus make them think
that you are F***ing selfish.
And please think bfr u say.
Aniway I will always be there for you
but believe me
if you carry on this way
they will all
cant be bothered with u
and ur noobish attitude.
sorry,

And to All
Nad mum is sick rite now.
Lets all wish her
a speedy recovery
Amin`
And will visit her when I feel much better.
Tkc babe!

P/s:Sometimes I miss all the times
We're together.
Rascals!

Sick.

2009-03-15T05:54:00.002+08:00

Well couldn't sleep.
In fucking pain.
Argh!
My throat baby!!!!!!
Working in a few hours time.
Damn sleepy.
Damn tired.

Aniway updates for last few days.

Busy with work.
Full of training and meeting.
But fun.
I'm loving this job.
Bcos of the ppl.
But hate this job
bcos of some hypocrite.
Damn..
Why must we back stabbed each other
when we are working
to help this company
become a success.

Power.
All that they want.
Money.
Is all that they running for.
But.
They never give a thought
of other ppl.
Never appreciate.
Never even think
what we've been stressing abt.
Inhuman.
Super inhuman.
Getting fed up.
But the therapist made my day.

P/s:When I said,
I'm done for now.

Joy.Laughter`

2009-03-11T22:37:00.003+08:00

Happy Bday Nanie!
Had a wonderful day yesterday.
Full of laughter.
Mixed of happiness n sadness.
Well one of the therapist gonna be away for 1 mth.
*sob~sob*
But its ok.
All the best for her wedding!
More pics at my Multiply

And here's the video for Nanie celebration

Teddy-ious'

2009-03-09T23:40:00.002+08:00

Well had training.
At Siglap.
My cheekys all!!!
waliao
so F-U-N
haha.
Meet up all the therapies,
Love them.

And yeah.
Something bothering me.
Won't explained in details.
Just thinking
Let it go.
Goodbye~

P/s:TIred.Tired.Tired

Yet`

2009-03-06T23:53:00.001+08:00

Oh well.
Tired tired tired.
Damn tired.
Back to Arab st again
Ye-_-

Aniway I'm sorry if my post
is going to be harsh
or somehow hurt any of u.
My dear friend
I know u've been hurt.
I knw u've give up.
Where's the spirit
that I saw in you
when I go thru the same process
as u
(Although its not exactly the same)
in which u gave me advise
in which u make me believe
there's still hope
for love.
Like you say.
"Come lala you still young,
there's a whole lot of guys
for you
that will bring your love back"

Darl this is what I want
to say to you back.

I know it's hard.
Cos u can't believe it can
happen to u
or ur r/s turn out this way.
But who r we to push our fate away.
U need time.
There's always a reason to everything
that happen.

If this happen to u
it doesnt mean
that it will happen to everyone.
You just can't think tat
the r/s of your frends to turn that way
just bcos ur's are.
I''m not been bad
or pressurize u
But
think bfr u say.
"Tell him dont waste time for her"
What the Hell
Come on.
Its jus as if u are cursing
ur own frens r/s
to turn bad.

And yeah I do admit
that
All guys only think sex.
And I knw its not 100% true
But tink
Hw many % doesnt?

Well dear fren.
You just need to be strong and face it
Be it alone or with frens.
Dont keep that hatred
in you for long.
Aniway I'm still here for u
Bye.

P/s:For some reasons

I'm sorry.

First day`

2009-03-03T10:58:00.000+08:00

Ok first day at JK
isn't that bad after all.
Kind of fun
been surrounded by
all the funny therapist
there.
Haha.
Cool ppl
funny
joker.
LMAO
Well the worst
is not yet to come.
So jyeah.

Aniway I've yet to make
a decision.
No matter what
my decisions is
it will still hurt either of them.
Guilty-stricken.
Damn.
Oh god please help me.

P/s:My mind
Is with you,
But my heart is with him.

Farewell`

2009-03-01T21:31:00.009+08:00

Nani give it to me.Nanie-My best Buddy

Ibu

Sexy Therapist

Kak Mas

Abg Syfiq

Well got a gd farewell
from the Arab St team.
Love them lots.
*sob-sob*
But got a Teddy Bear
from Nanie
Haha.
Muacks darl!
So officially
off I go to Jurong Kechil Branch.
Waliaowei!
Tmr the begin of the hell.

Arghh!!
Aniway
Feel sad cos
I'm departed from them
Just 1 week I'm there,
But I've build a strong rapport
with them
Both the therapist n consultant.!

P/s:Gonna miss them lots.
Just hope for the best lor.

At last`

2009-03-01T00:07:00.001+08:00

Just find out that
I've been transfer to
Jurong Kechil.
Chibbs!!
Hate it.
Waliao wei.

Aniway.
Manage to meet the threesome today.
Boring-sia
tdy.
Cos raining.
-_-''
Send Ecarr to
bus-stop
Wait with her
for family to fetch her.
Woish gone.
Den me n dhil
hang ard at Banquet
for awhile.
Den head home.
K lah tats it.
Bye

P/s:Gambling with 3.

At last~

2009-02-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

Met up with Zack.
Hang ard with his fren
at Yew Tee.
Follow him to meet his other frend
Den whooshii home!
Miss him though.
K done here
Aku nk B-E-R-_-_
Bye.

A thousand apologise~

2009-02-22T21:30:00.003+08:00

Threesome.
Sorry cos I've been busy
with work
every saturday.
Let's make time
for us gals to hang out
together.
Miss ya'll tho.

I hope my sat is free
for u gals
this week.
I'll try my best ok.
But aniway
even if i'm busy
on tis coming sat
I will still hang out
with the threes.
Cos I've been transfer to Arab St!!!
Woohoo.
I like!
So yeah
Plan
Plan
Plan
Muacks!

And to Rascals.
Please meet up soon aite.
Everyone seems busy
with stuff.
Oh well.
Hope to meet u gals soon.

P/s: I need to breathe in Hangout-Air
Hahahaha

♥♥Confession From My Lil heart

Pissed!

Final Goooddd BYE

ARRR~

Complicated'

Condolences

....

Thousand apologies..

Zewllloooooo

Hearts

Splendid 19 Bday

BBQ

Raya[Kecoh]

Unresolved Situation`

Confused~

Shucks~

Selamat Hari Raya

Sick`

Erase & Rewind

Let out~

BIK!!

Date'

Carik Kutu `

Kutu Malam

Cry

Boredom`

Nites went on..

Weekends~

Sentosa~

Ghost Busted Us

Woohhhoo!!

Outing`

Enjoy life!!

Am bored`

Am done`

Guilty~

Kalah-Ok!

Too-dles

Am-Sponge-Bob

Sat'Nite

Shopping`

Boom Boom Pow

Love.Biatch

A nite`

I'm Back.

Sayings`

ShehulkHe

Smile`

Otw`

Busy`

New phone`

NewyorkNewyork`

Updates`

Ok`

Out`

Excited`

Lies`

Sick`

Sick.

Joy.Laughter`

Teddy-ious'

Yet`

First day`

Farewell`

At last`

At last~

A thousand apologise~

Woaw~

The real world~

Wiiiiii~

Back to basic

Yet ...

Last day~

Lazy~

Laz-ingroun~

Lost~

Fight~

Close Friends~

Lepak-ing~

Insomnia~